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人生五十年


感慨于今天的话题说活到的五十岁, 其实呢意义不在于几岁,而是在于你真正的活了多少年?每个人都有不同的醒悟时间,甚至有些人一生也没有对自己的人生活过,但是,他们后悔了吗?

我的每个人生阶段都有不同的觉悟,现在的我真的可以是朝闻道,夕可死的状态了,不是因为我活够了, 而是我觉得我的人生已经圆满而没有遗憾了。无憾无悔。

要说自己真的没有后悔什么?是有,但是太少,不值得我回首望去的深深懊悔。遗憾也有,人生总是要有遗憾才能是真正的人生。

有条件的人生对于我来说都是为被人而活的人生,等我如何如何了,我就什么什么的。我很兴庆我醒悟的早,对于这段为别人而活的生活不算长久,以前老是想等我有钱有时间了我就去穷游世界,如果根据这个做法,现在的我的身体已经不允许我这样做了,那我是不是白活了?还好这两段经历我都体验了。

我有过很好的朋友,我有失去过很好的朋友,所以我学会了珍惜友情,所以我不后悔失去过这么好的朋友,他已经活在我的过去,他也是我珍惜过的朋友,哪怕有一天,他想起我这个人,我们也会是朋友。

我有过家庭,也是去过家庭,所以我知道亲情的珍贵,我不后悔失去过家庭,我尊重每个人的选择,哪一天她醒悟了,我们还会是朋友。

我有过仇恨,也放下过仇恨,所以我选择了我哥曾经介绍我去的地方,去体验不同的生活,哪怕是短暂的日子。

当你选择A的时候,你有可能失去了B,甚至于失去了C或者D或者更多,但是请你不要后悔你的决定,如果你后悔了,那么请在下一次的时候,不要选择会让你后悔的决定。

没有一个人的人生可以说是十全十美的,我觉得我们能做到的,就是在于你无悔于你的生活,哪怕你的生活都是为别人而活的,只要你不后悔,你的人生就是完美的。

April’s fool 2020


愚人节,张国荣的忌日。。。好多年没经过他跳楼的那座酒店了,不知道还有没有人在纪念着他。。。

新冠病毒的虐势至今仍未停下,估计今年旅行计划泡汤了。

骑砍2终于出了,有生之年玩到了,虽然说时early access…

不知不觉,第一季度已经过完了。。。

春天走了,夏天到了,可惜啊,浪费了3个月。。。虽然说时间是拿来浪费的。。。

人类的问题,就是在于人类太多了,以前靠战争来控制人口,现在战争没了,就靠疫病来传播来控制人口了, 这个看起来有些扯淡,上帝之鞭啊。。。


another year passed, another year came… as usual, without further adieu, lets start of my listing:

  1. nba2k21. as usual, definately wanted listing. another target in list, ghost of Tsushima.
  2. HOTS, achieve grandmaster ranking
  3. PS5.
  4. finished at least a game i have bought.
  5. journey to vietnam/cambodia
  6. visit bkk for Lee’s family new born baby…
  7. staying for another year in china maybe?
  8. bring ma to travel, anywhere she wanted to…
  9. meeting up HOTS friends
  10. travel once each month whenever possible at least
  11. world Peace!

心有余而力不足


很多人喜欢说等我有条件了,我就怎么怎么的。。。每次我听到这个,我就呵呵了。很多时候,当你的条件有了,你可能已经失去了你想怎么怎么的心情或者动力了。

常常人说心有余而力不足,反思一下,为什么要等到力不足的时候才想去干某件事呢?有心有力的时候不去干过后再瞎扯淡?

对我来说,想到的事,想去做就去做。到了我这个年龄,什么东西都是可以挤一挤就可以实现的了。想去见见朋友,二话不说,约个时间吃吃饭,见见面。毕竟时间过了一天也就一天了。开心就好。。。

想去旅行,提包就走,能走多少算多少。。。 想吃吃,不吃滚。。。

人的一生呐,多少要为自己而活,千万别等时间到了,才觉得白来了这个世界。。。 天地很广阔,时间很少,真的,别等了,在有心有力之时想干什么就干什么,别老是等等。。。

人寿几何?逝如朝霜。时无重至,华不再阳

Okinawa Trip @20191001


2019/10/01-2019/10/04 我的冲绳之旅 先来瓶可乐镇图
住的酒店,地点还行,不过挺宽敞的,价格可以还行。在日本来说算可以的了

假如。。。如果。。。


很多人喜欢在事情发送之后说假如是他就如何如何的。。。貌似他就是那位天上派来拯救世界的英雄。 可惜世界没有假如,某某也只能在聊天的时候意淫一下而已。

事情发生了就让他发生了,好的坏的,我们只能在事后检讨和补救而已。

我这大半生做过了很多事,好事的有,坏的也不少,不能一一都去处理好,但我百分之九十九都无悔我所做的事。后悔,肯定是有的,对我来说,已经发生了,已经不值一提了。

从来不要因为你后悔做了某件事,某种决定而痛苦的停止不前;时间还是照样的走,人还是照样的长大,变老。勇敢的面对他,可能很多年过后,你会发觉他不值一晒。

人生有限,我们能做的事情也只有那么的多,不要停滞不前。 往后看可以检讨,回顾,怀念,但是一定要往前走。不要因为怕而逃避,不要因为怕而绕道走。

困难来了,把他吃了,再吐出来。世界上没有什么是吃不了的。如果有,再吃一次,再吐出来。

再战冲绳


上一年被台风给吹回来的,今年不信邪的再战一次。 冲绳的吸血鬼们,小心点,我将要来了。。。

Yet another SSDD


it’s been weeks that wow classic went live. if mr. tee was here, i have no doubt to play with him. can’t believe, it’s like a decade long or more, since i started play wow. we have so many friends, that fight along us. we shared the joy, the battle, the raid together, we came, we lived through.

i first started wow i think it was around year 2005 when i accidentally found purchase the game CD from an apple store at gurney plazza. the shop keeper told me it wasnt compatible with windows system, yet i just bought it anyway. from then i started my first ever night elf hunter.

then i recruited my fren ling and bakai and i started my another warrior character with them. then we met our first ever virtual wow friend, muimui and chumbeque. we then have the flips that join us, milargo and then we have met the healer prynn.

ah well, those were the days my friends,we thought it never ends… to the long lasting memories ever wow friends…

C’est la vie


yesterday, i was told that i cannot use the company van to go out for lunch effective by today. my boss and i had a open talk on this and in his mind that we people’s are getting overpaid and better benifits that others, i didn’t tell him that we came in as an expatriate package, as i feels the wont understand what’s an expat’s term. in a company that trying to localize on their resources, there’s noting much better that cutting the foreigner’s benifits… well, what to say, c’est la vie.

someone once said, life is very hard, always. i do not totally agrees on this statement, life is very hard if you choose to be. there’s always a choice, you can choose to have a easy way out, you can choose to have a much happier way of livings, you can choose to chew it off, anyway, there’s always a choice.

Mid Summer 2019


仲夏,一个又闷又热季节,实在的让人受不了。真感谢空调发明者Carrier,虽然没买过他的牌子的空调,但是还是非常感谢他的发明,使道我们不再受天气的影响。。。

又是半年已经过去了,今天刚刚收到我同事被辞退的消息。有些惊讶,但是还是可以接受,毕竟赔偿还是合理的。这家公司的根部已经烂了,每个人都在为自己而战,公司赚不赚钱,产出量有多少, 谁有空去管那么多?每个人都在看着自己的KPI。。。

有时候玩游戏的心态是真如上班一样的。有些人一开始觉得阵容不行,就随便打,有些人被打几次心态就崩了, 有些人不问输赢,该怎么打,就怎么打, 有些人享受游戏的过程,不问输赢。有些人为了赢而打,一旦输了就破口大骂,说浪费了他的时间。拜托,玩游戏本身就是浪费时间的呀。。。

我喜欢浪费时间,对于我来说,生命的意义就是在浪费时间,反正我从来就没想过如何的不浪费时间,一开始想,时间就浪费了,不是吗?

对我来说,人生的意义不在于名留清史,不在于对全人类的贡献,而是在于我来过,我经历过,我开心过。至于其他人,“你记得也好,最好你忘掉,在这交会时互放的光亮。”

今年刚刚两次匡扶了汉室。这个游戏还是挺好的。同时也完成奎爷和他儿子的旅程。很多游戏完成了一半,要不懒要不没动力没完成。。。

权力的游戏除了最后一集没看。。。

小说看完了好几本。。。人类简史看到了大部分,看不下去了。。。

想看未来简史。。。还没动力开始。。。

老爸去世了,回了两次家, 又去了大阪,又去了曼谷。。。

半年已过,还等半年。。。人生有多少个半年呀?呵呵。。。


好朋友,知己,闺蜜,兄弟,这几形容词很多时候都用来描述对于某个人跌打的感情。呵呵,最近知道有个朋友和她的闺蜜翻脸了,从一个旅程归来之后就吵架了, 然后就没有然后了。。。感慨呀。。。

不过也不得不想,人与人之间的感情,越是要好越是脆弱,越好越对对方有要求,达不到了就开始产生不满。铁打多了易脆易折。 有时候还真的比不上普通朋友的交情。。。

我已经过了逢人都当成知己的年纪了,很多时候都是以君子之交淡如水的方式跟人家交往。把可以推的都推掉,感情这回事,永远都是要有个距离比较好。好比两个刺猬相互的取暖,太近的话会彼此刺伤,太远又冷, 要适当的把握距离。。。

曾经的我有个很要好的兄弟,我们从读大专就开始认识成为很要好的朋友,突然之间因为日常不停的事情摩擦,后来渐走渐远,彼此都没联系了。过了一段时间,我突然想到我貌似好久都没跟这个兄弟联系了, 想打个电话给他,糟了,电话换了新的,想不起他的电话了,找了电话单记录,打了不通,怎么回事呀?发了电邮也不知道他有没有看到, 想过去他家找他,不过也只是想想而已。。。后来一年一年的过了,直到现在都没联系上,想来也是时候该放下了,只要他过的好好的,其实也不需要一直常常联系,大家彼此都有自己的生活,过自己的生活就好了, 这个大概是相忘于江湖的最好典范吧?

曾经的我也有个好老大哥,后来他去世了。。。呵呵,我一直有事没事的给他在他的skype账号留言,每次一登陆Skype,都会在哪里留下一段问好,仿佛他只是不在位没回我而已。他在我病入膏肓的时候招待我去他家,带我去吃好吃的,以让我可以开心的走, 结果我走不成, 然后一年都会去他家住上好几次,直到他病入膏肓,我还是到他家,吃上好吃的, 按照我们的约定, 只要我过去找他,就要放开吃。我不知道他是不是开心的走,我只想他知道,他希望和我去玩的地方,我去了, 他想和我一起去吃的地方,我也去了。。。 呵呵, 在我的记忆当中,我从来没有跟他吵过什么,因为他是上天派来拯救我的一位天使。。。

我现在也有个好朋友,彼此都知道各自的距离,彼此都可以没心没肺的开玩笑的玩下去,只要不跨过线,彼此都可以很好的维持下去, 一直到永远?

每个人生都有不同的阶段,不同的阶段都有不同的知己朋友。失去了未必是个坏事,反正多年以后,如果还想起曾经的这些跟你一起快乐,一起扛过枪,一起同过窗的好朋友,都祝愿他们一切都安好吧!

Journey to the East


my Osaka->Nara->Himeiji->Hiroshima Trip

Day 7 back home.

another SSDD


well it’s been a while, everyday is just another SSDD to me. so what makes this SSDD diffrent that another SSDD that i would eventually put in on my blog?

hmm, i would put it on my blog because i can, and i wanted to, that’s all.

coming week is my planned holidays, while i just came back from long holidays few weeks ago. needs to enjoy my moments while it lasts.

ages had caught up on me, and am getting lazier to travel, used to enjoy traveling, now just staying home with my junior will be my best moments. another steps closer to senior citizenship, hehe.

many many years ago, when i was small, i remember that my mom took me to a fortune lady asking what will i be when i grow up. she told that your son will be traveling and working abroad, and will travels to places, well it came true when i started my 3rd job, and my next job would ask me to work abroad, amazingly the fortune teller has her propercy fulfilled.

40而惑而不惑?


人生刚刚过了41个年头,已经40而惑的第二个年头了。这几年都在过着混吃等死日子, 危机感油然而生,但是管他妈的,该怎么活就怎么活。人生就要活得自在。回首看看我之前的40年,不能说尽如我意,但也够了。活得还是挺好的。不开心的事我不多想,多想无用,陡然多加烦恼,何必?

几乎这几年的生日都跟老大哥过的,今年由于安排不来,去了无锡。好地方,连吃的都是甜的,哪里可能不好?

今年父亲走了,还有四舅,人生到了这个不惑而惑之年,几乎每年都要人离开,思念的,亲爱的,尊敬的, 时间到了,也就走了。 望大家都走好。

我好像好久不知如何的彷徨为何物了,老师说,吃饭时,吃饭; 睡觉时,睡觉。危机感呢?等要吃饭时没饭吃再说。。。

人生是如此的简单,至少我的人生是如此。我也兴庆我有如此简单的人生。

41岁的生日快乐。


一场烤肉的旅行


除了烤肉,还是烤肉。。。

2019 new year resolutions


  1. Revisit Okinawa
  2. perhaps getting nintendo switch, maybe….
  3. NBA2k20, Total war: Three Kingdom
  4. Wawasan 2020, it means something to me, but i just cant recall what was about…
  5. completing my phase 2 tooth planting at June or april.
  6. try not to move to another appartment.
  7. could be the last year in shenzhen.
  8. world peace!

2018 Year end wrapup


it’s been a while since new year, been a while since my last post… laziness caught up on me, with tiring mind and body, i am just lazy to do anything…

it is always good and bad in year 2018. when people come to my age, or maybe a little older than my age, always there are news that the elder people will passway. it’s a process of aging, nobody can escape this, they may delay, but eventually the time will come. no one gets away from death.

Mr Tee’s dad had just passaway on November, my dad passway on 1st of Jan, it is sad but old aging got to them, may they rest in peace.

金庸 had passway too, 香港四大才子已走其二。倪匡的卫斯理系列启蒙了我对看小说的兴趣。金庸的小说激发了我对侠客的认知,蔡澜对吃的和书籍对我造成了极大的影响。黄沾的不文集,极快的思维是我非常崇拜的, 可惜走的最早, 很喜欢他的丽花皇宫舞台剧, 可惜网上找不到完整的。

in the past year i travel alot, first to the Tainan, went to 垦丁and 高雄。高雄use to be a big city in southern Taiwan, now it just looks like a quiet city, where it seems to lost its vitality. i love 垦丁as i love most of the beach city,  nice seaview and beaches, lotsa stays and food. it’s always a nice city to visit. 

垦丁,尼克松石

next went to Osaka and Kyoto, amazing i would step into Japan and it was never in my wanted visit list, perhaps i am following Mr. tee‘s foot steps, had my first ever level 6.3 grade earthquake experience, cant really say it is bad, at least i survive it through, the most enjoying things i am travelling Japan is that i get to eat yakkiniku on every night! was suppose to go Okinawa, but due to the typhoon hitting, i got a U-turn flight from HKG-OKI-HKG, the plane has reach Okinaway, put down it’s wheel, but just couldnt land cause the wind is too freaking strong, which the Captain has to make the decision to turn back to HKG.

Yakiniku every night…

was suppose to go Okinawa, but due to the typhoon hitting, i got a U-turn flight from HKG-OKI-HKG, the plane has reach Okinaway, put down it’s wheel, but just couldnt land cause the wind is too freaking strong, which the Captain has to make the decision to turn back to HKG.

Went to Changsha to meet my Ex Finance boss, it’s a fun experience, while listening to those close covered stories from pass, it’s a short trip, but it was fun.

me and chairman mao at 橘子洲

Had my NBA2k19 as usual, and HOTS is dying, from the player and Blizzard way i guess. finish GOW except the last valkarie. bought quite a lot of games but the most i love to play are still Battle brothers, HOTS and NBA2k.

nothing much to summarize  about my work, it just a place for me to do my job, completes what my boss request, and get my pay. things has change from good to worse, and i may forsee the exits on the coming year(again)…

moved to another appartment again as usual every year. bought another 65′ TV, apart from travelling nothing much i would say i have accomplish in my year 2018 life.

再见了,查先生


今早看到新闻说查先生与10月30号走了,感觉人到中年了,遇到了好多这些事。上一辈的人开始的走了。旧的时代开始慢慢的离我远去了。 2个星期前才送走了我的伯父。 真的,真的,真的要珍惜当下。

很感谢查先生写下的小说,给我留下了珍贵的回忆, 给我留下了大侠的境界。你走了,世界还是没有忘记你。 感谢你, 一路走好。

曾经最喜欢的小说家啊, 古龙,金庸,黄易,黄鹰,卧龙生,柳残阳 都走了。

those were the days


it’s been a while since that i have stop playing wow. last year my buddy ask me to head back to wow: legions, but i have not. it was a great loss coz i would never play with him anymore.  today when i saw the screenshot that i took from many years ago, oh well, for sure it is something good to bring back the old memories. wow experience had changes my life experience significantly, it open up a windows for me to explore with the outside and inside worlds. i’ve made friends from all over the world, i’ve become friendlier, my english conversation skill improves and so many more that i would never thought off if i don’t get into wow.

many years has passed, those who have fight besides me were long lost… and i have missed you all.

priest: prynn, kurikuri, the 2 best healer who have fight with me for very long time. milargo the flips.

mage: ling

warrior: bakai, garyy,

hunter: jcro, rocky

warlock: chumbeque, tonytony, lolabasyang the flips,

rogue: muimui, maling, jun

druid: maling’s ex-wife

shaman and DK: hmm seems i do not have shammy and dk friends, mostly rerolls.

paladin: vanhagar

oh well, that’s all i can think of with my limited memries. it is a good game and i hope it will last for another 10 more years. who knows we may be coming back for a reunion?

closing with a chinese poem:

人面不知何处去,桃花依旧笑春风。