Posted in Snippets on 28, October, 2007|
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i am sick, well my hearts burned, some words has strike over my hearts as like the hellfire burning. it hurts. a cut in the sword would heals in a few days time but a cut in the words can only be heal by the one who speaks it or it will forever stays. i am sad. somehow i knew at least there’s someone i m worth caring for and i m vulnerable by getting hurts again. mr anderson says i am someone with not much of feeling well infact i do, but limited to few person only. idk and idc is part of my life for sometimes where it keeps me to stay like a happy man. well i am happy coz i never care much of others feeling, not until recenlt i m vulnarable to a weakpoint, where she is the one i m caring and can strikes my hearts through with her words. when i m a happy man i always keep my happy thoughts but when it comes to caring on someone else, things goes much complicated.
i am hereby going to mark my words here on the 28th October 2007 1825 hours:
"I WILL NEVER AND SHALL NOT REMOVE YOU AS MY WEAKPOINT! I WILL HOWEVER, IF ONLY YOU HAVE NO FAITH ON ME!" please don tell me that i never know. it hurts
it is painful when loving someone at a diffrent time and a diifrent place. the risk is high and the challenge is like climbing a mount himalayas. well, i am borned with passions, borned with stubborns, borned with iron wills, never ever give up the challenges when it comes to me. "nothing is impossible, it just looked that way", thats my signature of my email, where i never intended to put that as decorations. mount himalayas can be climb, many has proved it, it just don take a day to climb it. "故天将降大任于是人也,必先苦其心志,劳其筋骨,饿其体肤,空乏其身,行拂乱其所为,所以动心忍性,曾益其所不能" – a great chinese proverbs telling that if the god is giving a big assignment to someone, he will pity his heart, tired up energy, starves his body, empty his soul, making his life miserable, thus someone will learrn his awareness from there, and know what he is lacking of. it’s a great challenge for me and i love her. i will never ever give her up just because we are seperated apart.
comminications is the most important to keep up relationship among each others. if one end was shut down, it could be the ends. i am sucha idiot to shut mines up when i was mad yesterday. i am so poor when i trying to control my anger, the last time i shut my communication was like a year ago, when it happens to me and ed where i believe on someone else words. the second last time was between me and my ex, which it cause a breakup after then. i hope i can be more aware of that when i am mad.
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