someone ask me last night, what is your religion? do you believe in god?
do i believe in god? long time ago, when i was a still a kid and was sent to a baptist kindergarten to study, the teacher told us how god create the heaven and earth, and the god said, “let there be light”. from the book of genesis. then later on, we learned exodus, and the life of Christ. “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life.” John, 3:16 one of the verse that i was one believe in. and then the teacher teaches us to pray, to say the graces, “Thank you Lord Jesus for this food, and for Your love.Thank You that you were with us today. Amen.” the teaches also teaches us to say no to evils. i almost got myself converted that time. time passes, and i was lost, as i have none to guide me to the door of lord Jesus. and i have lost my faith. until one day, there were 2 girls over the road side, approaching me again, if i would like to join their church activities, and ask me to say a prayer with them to accept the Lord again. i was confuse, and i say the prayer but i never been to the church with them. hehe i wasn’t realize how much i have missed out until my very later age. i was terrified that time i guess, and was never ready to accept the lord.
then many years later, there was one preacher, knocking everyone’s house around my area, asking people to believe in gods, many have turn him down, but i let him in, and he teaches my to read a book, about Yehovah. can’t recall the title of the book. after his 3rd visit, again i have stay out of the door again. and there was something about the book of revelation i think…
then later on i was approach by one of the Taiwanese Tao religion, in which there’s a guide, who tells me how great their believes, getting me to convert to be one of them. out in nowhere, i was converted without knowing what is really happening. their activities are very similar to the church activities, there was a sermon on every week, singing the song, give donations… have no idea why i stay away from them, couldn’t recall, or maybe my memory lock it up not letting me to recall… they just disappeared in my life… so i go back to my school life, attending church activities once a while when my friend invited me, so do i believe in god that time? or which god i believe that time? still i label myself as a non believer. amazing, huh? i have a very complicated teenage life, i lie, i cheat and i steal. i work hard to get paid so that i could have money to go arcade center or getting the games i wanted to play. i find ways to get what i want. and guess what, i have not been caught. so what is wrong with the karma things that the Buddha teaching? or whether the god forgives everyone who believe in him? Repent! and your sins shall be wash away? duh i never did any repentance at all that time… ah well never i did it in my life…ever! ><|||
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