Archive for December, 2009
so calm
Posted in Snippets on 21, December, 2009| Leave a Comment »
偶然 -徐志摩
Posted in Snippets on 20, December, 2009| 1 Comment »
更无须欢喜——
最好你忘掉,
在这交会时互放的光亮!
is this a test or tease?
Posted in Snippets on 18, December, 2009| Leave a Comment »
hmm i am not sure, i never really put deep thought about it, or maybe i cant get the answer after my deep thought… i am so tired recently cant put much energy on it. maybe i put my energy on the wrong things ><
my boss once said gaining his trust needs time and efforts. cant believe he would say that when i work with him for 6 years. well guess fair enough since i don really trust what he have said for these recent years. it is hard to put some trust on ppl, especially we are living in the world like this. so i will do my best to gain your trust. but always remember that, i have a line too. don force me to cross my line, i don like to play with my patient. i am impatient.
i was wonder, what are the criteria of gaining others trust? to be honest? to be caring? to be hardworking? to have high EQ? to my boss, i think he needs me to control my temper. >< i bet he is one fucking boss that’s fail.
so i hate the guessing game… i live my life and trying to be honest as possible. i lied when i was told by, or force to if i don really trust on ppl who i think they are trying to get advantages on me. i tried to be as honest, lying is a sin, i always aware of that. i don lie when i have a choice. guessing somehow is difficult for me, as i don really have a strategy to win over a guessing game. i would just go and ask straightly. don let me guess please, i hate making assumptions. by all means, in the name of holy mary or jesus himselves, show me the light.
an Africa proverb
Posted in Snippets on 18, December, 2009| Leave a Comment »
Every morning in Africa, a gazelle wakes up.
It knows it must run faster than the fastest lion or it will be killed.
Every morning a lion wakes up.
It knows it must outrun the slowest gazelle or it will starve to death.
It doesn’t matter whether you are a lion or a gazelle.
When the sun comes up, you better start running.
tiring trip
Posted in Snippets on 18, December, 2009| Leave a Comment »
german pointer
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Crossroad
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Alone in the dark
Posted in Snippets on 2, December, 2009| Leave a Comment »
so many years… we’ve struggle together… so many days… we’ve gone thru together… fight bosses after bosses… and i thought we were best frens… yet now u have left… just like that… sigh…. i am just sitting alone in the dark… wondering where should i go… what should i do… what can i do….
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helping hands
Posted in Snippets on 2, December, 2009| Leave a Comment »
well time for bitching again i guess…. for the coming months i have promised my boss that i will cover his work in KL and selangor. for his wife is expecting and for him to stay home for being a father and taking care of his wife after the delivering.
i did not asked much… all i ask is that lemme stay in KL for the 2 month so i don have to travel much. as expected my request got declined. what i was told is that there will be minimal travelling needed. so today, i’ve drive down to KL and will be stay until friday. just a few hours ago, my other boss have called up, telling me that i have to go down to KL again on next tuesday. he will be doing the drivings… fuck this shits, still i need to travel, why cant i just stay here and go back until next week…. so much of good boss and bad boss tactics, toying with people’s mind.
some ppl just pretend that he doesnt know how exhausted i am for the travelling… all he cares are his family… he asked me as a favor to work down in kl, though i knew that i don really have a choice really… i’ve wrote for help in operation meeting for certain project and what i got is the answer that i already have enough resources to cover that. hell right… this department have 3 project manager, yet i am the only one who can be asked for favor?
getting a aching back again while i was writing this…. but who cares about me?
Crazy minds
Posted in Snippets on 2, December, 2009| Leave a Comment »
here again… my crazy minds (passions) have been torturing me again with some wild thoughts. some girl i know from the internet have caught my interests again. this crazy minds drives me crazy for many times and every times it takes a long while to heal and back to be myself again. now i think it is starting again… i have had learns that way to stop this. still somehow i let it control over my normal minds again. maybe i wanna see if what will goes to the end of this… will it be as painful as before or will it be something diffrent? que boonlee boonee, whatever will be will be… ><
i called myself as an adventures type of people… i always challenge my fear…. well except for watching scary movies… thats because i know that the movie are made to scare people and most prolly my body cant take the after shock effect and might got an heart attack.
i face fear like no tomorrow… i dare and double dare ppl if they dare me… i speak my thoughts when i think something is not right… i stood up and fight take the damage if i must…. some they call silly… some they call act without thinking… but what the hey… i am who i am…
once before i was like a sissy… when things happeneds, i used to denied of staying of behind when there’s a fight starting…. everything was just so scary when things happened… but then again… it was my crazy minds who thought me that i should never start fleeing nor start self denying…. all man lives a short lives…. if you have alway stay out of something… u’ll never grow… grow in a good way or bad doesnt really matters.. the ever first time i learn that when i was like 17 years of ages in a basketball field when there are tensions and abought the start a fight between my frens and some other ppl and i was staying in the back… it ends up with no fights and my frens just laugh at me about this. at the very nite i have gone thru the situations again and have the crazy minds influencing me that what i have shouldnt done…. think of the way if one day, i am the one who got picked up by others and all my frens stay behinds me thinking of running off their lives… that gives me a real thought. at least if someone stood besides me i always believe 2 is better than myself standing alone. one day… just one day i might be the victims if i never giving out my hands
the next things that have changes me alot is when i have visit the Nanjing massacre memorial… in short times the japs massacre 300 thousands of chinese…. it was like in every 12 seconds there will be someone dead by that time. that gives me a strong believe that if allt he 300 thousand ppl stood up and gives the japs hell out of fight… history may change… cowardice are just not my style anymore since then….
passions are wilds, crazys and dangerous thoghts… but also it gives inspiration, creativeness and adventures at the same time. u will never know what will hapens until u have decided to go with it. most ppl have the thought but most ppl fails to work with it… the recent i’ve heard is that some ppl is quitting a nice pay work and will be looking for job in far north…. seriously i never believe on what ppl said… may i’ve get to know some ppl so well… thinking is always easier than making it comes through….
2009 year end wrapups
Posted in Snippets on 2, December, 2009| Leave a Comment »
well its another year ends. time to wrap up for what i have learned again this year.
1. NEVER EVER TRUST YOUR BOSS!!! they are using us as a tools. the only time u trust them will be the day u have receive the salary every month! other than that, NEVER TRUST YOUR BOSS!!!
2. life are shorts, do whatever you want while you can, don always have the thoughts like
a. when A, then resolutions (when i am rich and old then i will go travel)
b. if A then resolutions else end ( if i have won lottery, then i will go travel)
times never waits… things with conditions don always work. assuming that we have 66 years to live and minus the 33 years of sleeping time, and 10 years of gaining to adulthood, we only really lives for 23 years and minus out the 20 years of working time. what we have left for being ourselves are only like 3 years of free time. if 356 X 3 we only have roughly 1000 days. which means that for averagely we will get 1 year free for every 22 years we lived. why stop doing things we like to do?
3. getting life back after quitting wow for sometimes. congratulations. but anyway stuck in console and other PC games again. bye bye social life ><
4. as a results of 3, social life almost = 0
5. health issue. getting worse on back and heart, getting healthier mental and positive thoughts…. well i gain something and i lose something 😀
6. more friendlier that i used to be and more harsh than i used to be. human are complex ><. not one can understand themselves, not even dare to speak about others
7. been to guilin, beijing, chengdu of china, brunei darulsalam and endless time travelling to selangor, KL and kulim.
8. trying to be a man with words, trying hard still.
9. learn about the phrase “comes to agreement” and find it nice to use when solving conflicts.
10. sleeepless issue still bugging me.
11. once again i have been bugged by my crazy minds.
12. someone owe me doraemon and never return to me yet. yes that you, clarissa tan!
13. i think some ppl just failed in our department. they just failed.
14. i also findout that my boss is playing the good boss bad boss tactics.
15. learn the word IDGAF. and i wish that i can really be IDGAF for the rest of my life. by doing this first of all i have to get rid of everything i had for now. sadly if i can draw or sing, i would really have the IDGAF attinutes and start travelling around the world.